Many years ago this picture was snapped unbeknownst to me. If I were to guess when it was, I would say it was sometime shortly after my divorce and before I met my husband…at least eight years ago. My headspace at the time was not great. I wasn’t truuuuly happy. I wasn’t totally right with God either. I was just in a weird, not good space. And I remember when I saw this picture after it was taken, I thought…”hmmm, I could stand to lose some weight.” Seriously?! I look at this picture now and think “wow, I looked pretty darn good!” Ha!
Do I still look like this???? Ummmm…yah, not so much! The thing is though, it’s ok because now I am pretty happy. I married an ah-mazing man, we have two children and I get to get personal with all of you here on my blog working from home while also spending some QT with my daughters! Oh and now, I AM pretty right with God. So much has changed with my body since that picture too! I got and survived Breast Cancer. Man, I had NO idea what my body was in store for after that whole insanity. I’m on a Breast Cancer medicine where the #1 side effect is weight gain. Yay! I’ve also had a second baby and I am older now too. So my body definitely doesn’t look the same…go figure. 😉 And I really, just don’t care about my outward appearance as much as I used to. Meaning, my priorities have just been in in other places. My husband, my children, my mom, traveling, having quality time with the people I love. Enjoying some champs when I want and maybe a cupcake…or two. Ha! Living life!
Recently though I have felt sluggish. I feel like I am tired alot and don’t have the energy like I used to and of course the icing on the cake (pun intended) is that I have also gained some extra lb’s. I was approached by a neighbor last summer about doing some sort of healthy fitness challenge thing with her but I was like “meh, no thanks cute little healthy runner neighbor girl.” lol (She knows I said that!) I just wasn’t in a place where I felt like making any kind of commitment like that. But a few weeks ago, many months later, I changed my mind. I reached out to her and said…’hey, I wanna try that healthy fitness challenge thing!”
Today is day four of said healthy fitness challenge thing and I wanna die. Ok not really but man, it is haaaaaard. Like really hard. And boy is it making me a crabby pants! It requires working out (with some help from my puppy-ha) and if you know me at all, I don’t work out as in, I don’t do the gym and you will never see me running down the street. Well unless Tom Hiddleston is at the other end. 😉 MY exercise is walking. Sometimes Yoga or Pilates and that’s on a good day. On top of that, the eating is pretty hard core too. They want you to eat VEGETABLES! Say WHAAAAAAT???? lol Again, if you know me at all, I don’t eat veggies either. Ugh and WHY did I think this was a good idea to start on the week BOTH kids are home for Winter Break???? But here I am telling you about this whole healthy fitness challenge thing for the SOLE reason that it makes it real if I share it with you guys. If I keep it a secret, which is what I was planning on doing, then noone would know if I succeeded or failed. And this blog is about always being real and transparent, so here I am.
So I am working on improving my eating habits and trying to fuel my body the right way. I guess Taco Bell is gonna have to miss me for a little while! I am getting my veggies in by working them into daily smoothies. I am trying a different workout every day and it’s killing me but I keep waking up and doing it again because I know it’s good for me! Will I lose weight? Will I lose inches? Maybe. Maybe not. But I do know that I have slept like a rockstar every night since I started because my body is getting the nutrients it needs AND the exercise it needs.
I probably won’t be posting any before or after pictures though because that would suggest that I think I was not good “before” this healthy fitness challenge thing and that’s not the case. I just want to be a healthier and more energized version of myself. I am grateful for having this body that birthed two children. I am grateful for having this body that has survived Breast Cancer. I am grateful for this body that God gave me. Oh and I want to live to be 100 (yes, I want to be on that Smuckers jar on TV!) plus I want to be able to be a healthy example for my girls.
So there ya go friends. Will I make it to the end? Who knows. I hope so. But I hope there is no end…just me living a mostly healthy lifestyle and always trying to be the best version of myself.
XO Surviving Mommy